Day 14: I miss my girlfriends

The twin girls across the street love my puppy. Almost every time I round the corner to the front yard, one of them runs out the front door in PJs or calls from a second floor deck to yell, “Hi HERO!” Their SIP time includes homeschooling, so I’m not surprised they’re staring longingly out windows looking for any diversion at all. With great pride they told me (always a leash apart) that school math is super easy for them, then with gloomy faces reported that Russian math was going to start up again soon. At almost 10 they are bursting with chatter and stories. I’ve only gotten to know them over the past month of Hero-walking and quarantining, but they’re magnetic the way all girls are, times two. I love their driveway chalk pictures and, you know, just all of the… girl stuff.

With Bernie still in and out of the hospital, it’s #Flattenthecurve Day 14 for Lees with no in person contact with anyone at all except all of these boys, the dog included. I’ve never lamented not having daughters because most of my favorite people made them and let me borrow theirs. But now I’m stuck here with ever-hungry seat-lifters and I’ve become Monica:

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I’ve also become a bit Monica with the cleaning… 

I miss Women’s Bible Study: a weekly reset that just isn’t the same when we’re not in a circle on couches giggling and praying and sometimes crying together. (Bible Study is a full contact affair, emotionally and physically.) I miss coffee with girlfriends: a lifeline to sanity, a sounding board for complaints, a no-judgment zone to share successes and worries. I even miss chatting with moms on sidelines. OK, maybe like one or two of you. You know who you are. When I picture Life after COVID-19, it involves margaritas with The Stockton Women, a fierce collection of cousins who share Grandma Mid: the hilarious, loving, smoking and drinking matriarch who loved each one of us the best.

I also miss restaurants a ridiculous amount. Meal planning and preparation and clean up is now a three times a day thing–often at different times, plus snacks. I miss meals out where my only responsibility was ordering and eating. And take out isn’t the same. Those of you also rinsing plastic containers for the recycles and marrying leftovers into Tupperware are feeling me on this. IT IS NOT THE SAME.

Talking to the twins’ momma on my multiple daily Hero walks (always a leash apart), I recognize she has zero down time. She’s working while homeschooling and entertaining her almost 10 twins who still need her supervision for things like slime-making and movie-approving. Meanwhile, I’m here with a puppy and teenage boys who sleep until 2pm. What a waste of resources that I cannot invite the girls over to make cupcakes, let them watch unapproved Netflix specials, and try on silly formalwear from the back of my closet…

… girl stuff.

 

 

 

Coronavirus 101

Jason started feeling sick. Not “COVID-19 sick” he wrote, but definitely sick. Though his presenting symptoms were not the classic myalgia/sore throat/cough, I told him what I’m telling everybody:

Assume it’s COVID-19.

Don’t Panic, is the first and hardest instruction to follow. But yesterday Jason earned an A+ in Coronavirus 101: What To Do When You Get Sick During a Pandemic. Jason realized he did not need medical attention, and stayed home. Jason knew COVID-19 testing was not necessary because even if he tested positive, there are no medicines to treat coronavirus (though new ones are being tested in a controlled, scientific way)… so he stayed home. Also, Jason’s COVID-19 status wouldn’t alter his behavior because he was already self-isolating, by staying home.

Social media is bursting with criticism: “I went to/called the doctor with xyz symptoms and risky exposures, AND THEY REFUSED TO TEST ME.” Angry, scared, and looking for people to blame, test-seekers are also unwittingly lowering the confidence we need to have AND SHOULD HAVE in our front line medical staff. And while they are out in the world attempting to tap limited resources unnecessarily, they’re potentially spreading COVID-19 or other pathogens. I’m going to repeat this a million times:

COVID-19 TESTING IS NOT MEDICAL CARE.

And this:

If you aren’t sick enough to consult a doctor or need the ER, you need to stay home.

This is Day 8 for Lees on Lockdown. We’re not protecting ourselves so much as shielding other people. Bernie was in and out of the hospital until Monday, so we’re assuming all four of us have been exposed and could be shedding virus with no symptoms. Does this mean after 2 weeks of isolation we can start sneaking in short visits with people who promise they have been at home, where no one is symptomatic, and everyone promises to wash their hands?

No. Nope. Not yet. No.

The most common text message in my phone right now is asking how long will this go on. And friends, there are no answers for this. We only have mathematical models, daunting statistics, and sobering graphs from experts who predict a more immediate crisis before any possibility of returning to a world where there is lots of toilet paper. But China reported no new local cases yesterday, and I’m clinging to that. Can you envision a cascade of mini celebrations as each city in the US begins reporting 14 straight days with zero positive tests? We’ll get there.

If you stay home.

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This t-shirt exists, and I want it.

A message for young people: quit it, and stay home

Dear Young People,

If you don’t kill us with your refusal to adhere to social distancing, we’ll all be hen-pecked to death by your annoying insistence on meeting up with friends. So quit it, and stay home.

The messaging that COVID-19 is less lethal to your age group–which is true, thank God– is being translated by some in your age group as “we won’t get it,” which is really really really untrue. Instead, because you have already been everywhere (school and sports and Starbucks) and with everybody (ditto) you’re carrying a risk of having contracted COVID-19 that is not zero. People your age are also more likely to walk around shedding virus while having no symptoms at all.

Some of you have become armchair epidemiologists and are manufacturing relative risk estimates based on positive COVID-19 reports in your area. Whatever you are guessing, you’re wrong. We aren’t testing enough people to know what the community penetrance is. Even if you arrived at the hospital right now and with the classic presentation (body aches, fever, cough, and fatigue), they wouldn’t test you for COVID-19 unless you were sick enough to be admitted. And though very few of you will get that sick, some of you will. Instead, you’re more likely to infect 2-4 people (that’s the R naught) every time you insist on going over to Emma’s.

Also, I don’t care what Emma’s family is allowing. Social distancing means you stay home. And if you have to go out–and let’s be honest, you don’t– you stay 6 feet away from other people. We’re also not buying your “I’ll go to the grocery for you” or “just gonna run up to Panera for a sandwich.” Children, please.

On Wednesday, I gave a COVID-19 overview to high school seniors who told me they hadn’t gotten much more information than, “wash your hands.” On Wednesday, which was just 72 hours ago, they didn’t entirely believe me when I told them schools would be canceled by the next day. I showed them graphs that prove how contagious COVID-19 is, and said out loud what no one is telling you: some of your grandparents will die if we do not slow its spread. You know what those kids aren’t doing now? They aren’t asking to go over to Emma’s.

Things might get grim, but right now you have an opportunity to help save lives by doing something you already love to do: stay home and play with your phone. Make some TikToks. Learn how to skateboard or practice your three-pointer. And armed with science (R naught! Homeschooling done for the day!), you can be an ambassador for public health just by telling your friends you’re not meeting up with them at Shake Shack.

Tell them to quit it, and stay home.

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Remember summertime when you didn’t know who these guys were? They are the definition of VIRAL. Related: the Hype House needs to be shut down. #socialdistancing

So you think you have coronavirus…

In a day or two, nearly all of us will have a version of this story, and this is just one example of many that I’ve gotten within the last 12 hours:

So, my wife went to Starbucks with Beka yesterday… and Beka called this morning to say she has a fever and there is a woman in Beka’s lab who is self-quarantined because her husband was in Spain for a conference in February and he’s sick. Should I be worried?

By St. Patrick’s Day, this story will be met with, “She went to STARBUCKS?” incredulity. But right now, and in the next couple of days, all of us will have a similar risk to assess as the friend of a friend of a friend that was exposed gets closer. Here is my take home message if you read no further: you are most likely going to be absolutely ok.

I write about COVID-19 yet again because my phone is on fire, because the high schoolers I spoke to yesterday were absolutely starving for information, and because you guys are reading and sharing. Many of you are leaders of organizations in your own spheres and I APPLAUD YOU for taking action early to cancel events that put us within 6 feet of each other. Your caution is helping to #flattenthecurve and will ultimately conserve resources if not save lives. By now you’ve seen that awesome graphic showing how even if we don’t prevent a single infection, by merely stretching out the rate at which that happens, fewer people die.

Here around Boston, schools are beginning to close. Unfortunately, not all of them yet, but let’s try to be kind while everyone gets on the same page. There is so much conflicting information circulating, new and alarming data hourly, and our own very human fear and skepticism to overcome. By now, I hope most of us are being mindful of how risky that Starbucks stop could be, but even the most vigilant of us will have a “Beka story” soon.

So you think you could have coronavirus… what do you do? Here is what the large medical centers are recommending right now:

Don’t panic. 80% of infected patients experience a mild or moderate course that requires NO medical treatment.

If you have no symptoms, there is nothing to do but self-isolate. Most people show symptoms within 5 days, but during that “incubation period,” if you have been infected, you are contagious even though you feel fine. THIS IS WHY WE’RE CANCELING EVERYTHING RIGHT NOW. If you think your exposure is especially risky (e.g., your college student home from abroad is feverish and coughing) you have an even bigger responsibility to self-isolate. Some patients have not reported symptoms for up to 2 weeks, which is why these “mandatory quarantines” are for 14 days.

IF YOU GET SYMPTOMS, COVID-19 looks like this: tickly throat progressing to sore throat, low grade fever, body aches, and all of those things that make you say, “ugh, I’m definitely coming down with something.” Abdominal pain, diarrhea, nausea, and vomiting are also being reported. Sneezing, runny nose, and postnasal drip is NOT how COVID-19 presents.

IF YOU HAVE COVID-19, symptoms could escalate to a persistent, dry cough and high fever. Testing kits are still not universally available and providers are hamstrung by strict criteria that indicate their use. But you don’t need it. You can call any number of hotlines if you have questions, but remember that 80% of the time, COVID-19 will run its course and you will get better within two weeks. The recommendation is that you STAY HOME and treat with Tylenol, lots of fluid and rest, hot showers to help with cough, and limiting contact with housemates. That last bit will, obviously, be difficult.

YOU NEED TO GO TO THE DOCTOR IF… you have shortness of breath and feel like you are worsening to point of needing care, and/or you are over 60, and/or you have co-morbidities like diabetes, heart disease, or are immunosuppressed. Those with risk factors should set a low bar for seeking medical attention if symptoms are consistent with COVID-19 infection. Our Taiwanese friends have offered this simple test: if you are sick and cannot take a deep breath and hold it for 10 seconds, you need to seek medical attention immediately. (NOTE: if this “breath test” is easy for you, it does NOT mean you are negative for coronavirus.)

If you have decided you need to go to the doctor, CALL AHEAD. The instructions for how each center is handling presumed COVID-19 infections are changing daily. In public, you should wear a mask (or get one as soon as you get there).

And now I leave you with a hopeful message from J.P. Hong, our dear friend from the Asan Medical Center in Korea… and the future:

“First comes denial and then confusion and then you will see so much rapid change and development in the next few days…. it will be incredible how we adapt…. and hopefully see the better side of humanity as doctors volunteer and various innovations occur to fight the virus.”

Those who have bravely canceled events and schools and gatherings are past denial, but most of us are still muddling through the confusion. I hope these guidelines help as all of us inevitably acquire our own Beka Stories.

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COVID-19 Isn’t A Snowstorm

It’s been two weeks since I wrote about COVID-19, and in that time the virus has extended from a handful of countries to over one hundred, from two cases in two states to over 400 cases in 35. And though those numbers still sound low, I urge you to calculate how many degrees of separation you are, RIGHT NOW, from someone who is quarantined (or should be). Here in Boston, most of us are at one or two.

Still, there’s a whole lotta this being shared:

The FLU kills thousands and so does heart disease and the whole country isn’t losing weight and buying Pelotons and most people will be fine or don’t even know they have it so why is THE MEDIA making everyone freak out and buy toilet paper to last until Christmas?

These arguments from exasperated acquaintances on social media are troubling me. The state of Costco shelves and price gouging of Purell tells us that a LOT of people are heeding warnings and preparing to hunker down. A candid picture from Teddy’s glee club performance (which should have been canceled, but we’ll get to that) caught a kid coughing into the crook of his arm. So maybe a little bit of hysteria is a good thing? I mean, for the first time in history, men are washing their hands after peeing? But there are plenty of articles, cable news talking heads, a sizable fraction of your Facebook friends (and occasionally our own political leaders) who insist this “hype” is overblown nonsense.

They’re wrong.

First, all of us should unearth our binders from favorite college professors and revisit the definition of false equivalence. Arguments comparing COVID-19 with other diseases—diseases that have vaccines and medicines and data and more history on the planet than a handful of months—are not valid. If we shouldn’t be overly concerned with COVID-19 because the flu also kills lots of people, does it follow that we can quit reminding women to get mammograms all of October because heart disease is actually more common? That’s how false equivalence arguments fail. Further, calling fear of a probable pandemic “hypocritical” when a person’s daily life does not already include safeguards against more common ailments is just unhelpful when it isn’t unkind. Finally, insisting this virus with a “low” mortality rate is not worthy of travel bans, event cancelations, and school closures entirely ignores a really enormous and valuable and loved set of people at real risk of dying.

The CDC put together this comparison to staunch flu-is-like-COVID-19 arguments… and why I’m worried about veteran teachers, grandparents, and most people in our church pews.

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Since I wrote the last essay, my phone has been binging regularly with requests for advice. Bernie saw patients well beyond his office hours on Friday because everyone wanted his medical opinion on their travel plans and to discuss their relative risk. Should my parents come to the kids’ piano recitals? Should we go to Europe for Spring Break? Can I take the boys to the YMCA pool? Are you going to the PTA meeting? Can we go to the basketball game? Can we fly to Colorado to go skiing? The answer to all of these is no.

No no no no no.

COVID-19 isn’t a snowstorm. A rapidly spreading virus cannot be approached with the same sliced bread and bottled water hoarding preparation. We should not be trying to fit all of the activities in before it “really hits.” It’s here, people. Our churches, classrooms, stadiums, yoga studios, airplanes, and grocery stores are black ice. We’re already at risk because we failed to heed the warnings from Wuhan to be vigilant. I find this quote from Mike Leavitt, former Health and Human Services Secretary particularly poignant:

“Everything we do before a pandemic will seem alarmist. Everything we do after will seem inadequate.”

The only way to protect yourself and your family is with good hygiene, by limiting your errands to those where you can stay 6 feet away from people, or by just staying home. Is this impractical? Yes, for a lot of people. Yes, but it is also all we have. And kind of guessing that everything will be ok and this will just die out as the weather gets warmer isn’t really how viruses work. Behavior modification is the only way to prevent widespread dissemination of a disease that could kill a significant number of our cancer patients, grandparents, disabled friends, and asthmatics. If you can afford to miss things—especially if you are over 60 and/or have other health issues—please do that. Stay home. Your pets will love you even more, and you’ll stay healthy.

It should be telling that medical professionals are canceling meetings daily. Residency interviews are being held via Skype. Morbidity and mortality conferences are on hold. Faculty dinners are being rescheduled. As a division chief, every day Bernie has another cancellation to consider, and continually chooses to limit exposure. He passed on the Celtics game last night because he has cancer patients who are relying on him. We’re canceling our trip to London because those same patients will need to reschedule their operations (and caregiver and child care plans) should he get quarantined. It seems reasonable for an otherwise healthy person to risk COVID-19 exposure because for 80% of patients the course will be mild. But what if your exposure risk leaves you quarantined for two weeks? How many other people and their livelihood will be affected by your forced absence? And should you become infected, how many of your close contacts are people in the very high risk category? In that light, is the glee club choir assembly really worth it?

We should all be weighing what is “worth” the risk right now very heavily, especially if you have the luxury of opting out of things that, let’s face it, really aren’t all that critical. In lieu of any “herd immunity” to protect us (since none of us is immune), the best we can do for those of us who cannot afford to miss work or take public transportation right now is to reduce their exposure. Drive to Vermont to ski instead of flying to the Rockies. Videotape the piano recital. Watch the Celtics on TV. Not forever… just for now. We cannot discount the potential spread of COVID-19 as we would an exuberant StormWatch meteorologist tracking a Nor’Easter that could easily be just a dusting. COVID-19 is here, it’s spreading, and it only looks like a few scattered flurries now because we have yet to do any sort of adequate testing or data acquisition.

But there’s black ice out there, people. The WHO has listed its first objective to “interrupt human to human transmission…” so let’s help them do that when we can.